So, I finished the Clean Cleanse of Alejnadro Junger earlier this week. I feel fine. You know, I couldn't wait to break out of these grim lunches of privation!
Haha. Two plates at a time.
It's over & I'm still eating the same way. I mean, the only things I really am dying to eat are, like, half-price Valentine's chocolates & there is, clearly, no need for that. And even so, I don't actually want to eat chocolates but for with the spoiled child part of me & who needs her? The nightshades, the eggs, the oats, even the butter ... gone. Bye! I mean, we can visit, I guess?
Junger actually has a whole post-Cleanse regimen worked out where I am supposed to add things back in a structure at a rate and, yk, fuck it. I mean, not forever, but right now, it's too mathy. I'm busy in a blur of taking people to their places & doing my things & I feel good. I sleep well, I am ready for bed when it is time, etc. My skin is ever more amazing, but is it ultrasonic cleansing?
I feel like the hardest part was being in NYC and even that wasn't so bad, once I shied away from MoMA & her flourless chocolate cake within. But I was never hungry, and I went out to eat three separate times (lamb chops w green beans; 3 lamb + 2 nopales tacos; lamb shwarma+green salad, baa-aa-aaaa). I was invited to dinner at the Israelis' and I demurred because already it's too much to rattle off, even before the Clean Cleanse and then after that, it's way too much & then the Israeli is too-much sweet + nosy + bossy + problem-solving (can be worst combination for me, sometimes) to just let it lie, so, that.
I know everyone always wants to know How much weight did you lose? I know that because people who don't even know I was on a cleanse are asking me a bunch of personal questions everywhere I go lately. It is awkward, because I do not like to talk about my body (I had a blip late last year where I wanted to show everyone my 4-pack & I don't know what that was all about.) I do not own a scale. I can tell you that clothes which had fit are now floaty & clothes which were floating around me are now falling off, so that's kind of a bummer, because I have some nice things I love. I love clothes. But ok, it's fine. I actually felt relieved at the idea that I would have to cast some wardrobe items aside for ill-fittedness because otherwise I can't choose, you know? (Love clothes.)
Also, though, after a 2012's Eating Project, this Cleanse Paradigm came at the right time because it takes away all the limitless choosing & confusion of what to eat. On the Allowed Foods list, there is very little I can not eat -- rice, I think. Otherwise, I can open up his recipe book or anything & eat whatever I want. It gives me a direction to eat in, specific ways to fill my days with more calories or vitamins or fiber or macronutrients or micronutrients. I only have to choke down lunch & if I want, breakfast and dinner can get sucked through a straw. (Yes, yes.) So, it's good, this eating & taking care of myself, etc. A+ xox